America - God bless thee

I absolutely hate it when people of foreign lands accuse America for the problems - Mind you, America is paying your country to be out of depth. If there's such a huge issue with America, then stop taking their money and live on your own. Oh, and if you think America is trying to destabilise your country, just so they can get to your nuclear assets. And now I'm not saying they're not. I have no freaking idea, but lets say they are, then it is your governments duty to protect your country for being destabilised.

All people do is blame other. Take action for your own mistakes!!! And yes, I know I bitch about America all the time. But America is now my home. I love it, and I accept it flaws at the same time.. but I hate it when people who have never lived in America and claim that they know ' all Americans are dumb' or that 'all Americans hate Muslims'. That is not correct. So please do yourself a favour and get your facts right and then speak!

Thank you!!

New birds

You just have to be sure you're doing the right thing.
I mean it's very easy to forget - she's just sitting there in the pub with her new friends and her new life and her new hair, and it's been five years but you'd know just to look at her.

I wasn't even sure it were her at first, I was ready to walk away but she smiled and called me over and we said hello for a bit. When we back to our tables we were trying not to look over at each other and told our frineds to stop staring. I didn't see her for the rest of the night, but by closing time the beer's kicked in so I go up and speak to her and we end up going for a walk and talking about our new homes, our new jobs and our new birds.

She says she's been going out with him now for about two and a half years, but they don't live together so he'd never find out. And you think about chasing her about school when you were wee and lying in your bed and listening to love songs and pretending they were about you. And the first time you asked her out she said no but one night you went to a wedding and when you came back to the pub she's changed her mind and you went out. You remember the way she swung her arms when she held your hand but you can't remember how she kissed and now you've got the chance to find out.

But you have to remember there's this other kiss. She's at home, wondering where you are and what you're doing. And you work hard on this kiss and you know it inside out, it's as much yours as it is hers,And it took a long time to get right, it took months of practice and months of embarassment but now you've got it perfected and you've been looking forward to that kiss all week.

You can see her breath in the air between your faces as you stand in the leaves and she just asks you straight out if you want to come and stay at her flat. But you make sure you get separate taxis and you go home and there might be a slight regret and you might wonder what you missed but you have to remember the kiss you worked so hard on - and you'll know you've done the right thing.

Its been too long..

Sometimes we just have to let go of certain things. It may be very difficult- I would know that. I've been trying to let go of the past for far too long now. I am absolutely done living in the past with false hopes. Hopes, that I do not need if I live in the moment.


I know I've said this way too many times, and every time it is the last time. I do truly hope that this one would be it. I have no resentment against anyone from the past. I with all my heart wish them the best of life.Although, I do wish all this could've had a better ending, or shall I say an easier beginning to a new chapter. 


I suppose, nothing in life is easy. I know once I get done with this chapter in my life. I will be extremely proud of letting go of the drama, all the people, the 'love' and the old memories. I don't want to ever think of all this and regret, I do want to remember the good times- but mostly for now, I don't want to think about any of it at all, not till I am entirely over all this, absolutely stable and completely strong again! 


I really need to carry on with my life. I am not sad about all this anymore, yes I am hurt and embarrassed for not being mature enough to let go of all that I was still holding on to, but I guess we all have weaknesses. I am upset that I haven't been able to live in the present for such a long time now. I need to get to know myself again. I need to start my hobbies again, smile and happily start my new life without turning back. 


Its high time to let the sun rise again and let it fill us with its radiance :). Good day everyone. 


A song, that I'm ready to listen to with out having feeling attached to it :). I hope you will enjoy too. 

A land called paradise

I will always love you

I'm writing you this letter because I can't do this anymore. I love you so much. I miss you everyday. I've been wondering if you've been thinking about me... will you ever want me again? will you every love me again like you did? These are questions I ask myself over and over again, but they're questions that will never be answered at this point. I can't keep wondering anymore. It's not fair that you've moved on and I have been stuck in the same spot, afraid to move. I know I'm doing it to myself, I have been for far too long. Even though the thought of not speaking to you scares me, I have to do it for myself. I can't be your friend and act like I'm okay when I'm not just for the sake of still having you in my life... You used to tell me you would never get over me, that you could see yourself with me for a very long time. If those feelings were strong and true then they must still be in you and maybe one day you'll be able to express them again. But I have to stop thinking about how it was with you because its gone.. I feel like a fool for holding on this long. Am I a fool? Or a person who is just truly in love? I have to let you go H.. I've been avoiding this for four months and I know I could probably keep it up for a long time but I need to be strong and take this stand... Thank you for being one of the greatest things that came into my life. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I can never hate you because I know that everything you did was out of love, but I hate that it had to end. I even hate that I can't wish or hope you will come back to me anymore. Talking to you and seeing you will just set me back no matter how much I tell myself it won't.
I miss you so much & I always will.
I hope you accomplish every goal you set for yourself, I hope you figure out everything you were unsure about, and I hope above all that you are happy.
I wish I could be there to see it all happen.
But the reality is, you left me
& now its time for me to let go.

I will always love you,
L
Lelove


I did not write this letter. When I read it, I felt like I did, cause this is exactly something that I would write. Oh well, hope you all enjoy :)

Broken bells

Just discovered this song. I like it :)

I carry you in my heart.

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in My heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done By only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear No fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want No world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows Higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)